15: Dec 2016 #07 - Time of Necessity
Authored by Suzanne Highland
Time of Necessity
Piece by piece I kick off the years’ grief: first as a pupil of longing, studying the veil and tendrils, the white membrane parting from the cleft you left trying to access me— then I loose myself and go out too: limb by spent limb, an indignity flourishing and concealing me like a weed. My indignity: you were always the blade turning in its dull case, eager to stay secret. I sought its edge then and now, and now and then I still do: there’s a fidelity to pain, the way I find myself standing in my kitchen and only after sitting back down recall what I went there for. This is how I’ve survived you until now. Your crack widens, allows what you thought was impossible, and I look up and out of it.