08: October 2015 #08 - How to Sell Your Virginity on Craigslist
Authored by Natalie Schlosberg
How to Sell Your Virginity on Craiglist
I bought my first binder six months ago. Now, whenever someone mentions the school/office/paper supply that weighed me down in the sixth/seventh/eighth grade hallway, I assume they are referring to what People Like Me fasten across our chests. To be bound, by definition, is to contain. Bound, adjective: I strapped down the parts of me (mischievous iron beauties) that begged to be mishandled, and somehow I found them to be already misplaced. (ran away? rubbed off? rubbed up?) Like my virginity, sold them on craigslist. Some anonymous fuck used his paypal, and afterwards I was called a pal. And paid. priceless! During, not sure: I told my story to his eyelashes. Spilled it on the bedsheets. Mumbled it as he fumbled with it. Like some silly zombie, I continue to share. (to pour myself everywhere) I told myself to microphones, sold myself to prescription pads. Gave my hands and knees to middle-aged drug dealers with a preference for smooth skin; the silk of infancy. He wore grains of sugar up and down his shameless stature, burnt like mine in a fire only abandonment can fuel (therefore I can relate) Lapped it up but I didn’t have a brown paper bag to keep it in, or a blazed bonfire to hide, so I give this to the loyal envelope of my tongue and chew one of the little I Love You’s every 9:54pm, ritually.