18: January 2018 #08 - Possibility

Authored by Stephanie Falkowski

Possibility

by Stephanie Falkowski

 

So what happened?
Can you go back to before you started
self-harm, before the harm had even manifested
When you collected salamanders
and kept them in jars
When you had to be forced out of the water
and running everywhere was the only way
When the crickets at night and warm summer air
frightened you and you had to 
sleep with the light on
When a bowl of ice cream with rainbow sprinkles
and chocolate syrup was nothing
and everything to your lips
When writing stories that you never finished 
because you already had a new idea —
What was that like —
To be so full of life that living on the edge
was so ever possible because you knew it to be
What would it be like, if you knew
You could be