09: December 2015 #05 - Be Good

Authored by Stephanie Falkowski

Be Good

by Stephanie Falkowski

God knows my sins but Mother do you know my truth?
I've fallen to my knees and bit my nails and torn into my chest to escape
what I am and what I've done, what I've become is of pure heart
and I'm no more human than the person next to me in line at the grocery store
I'm no more an angel walking this earth with the devil
loving, fucking, shitting, crying, crossing my t’s and dotting my i’s
and I'm sorry but I'm not sorry I can't, you can't understand
fear is my friend and I've realized it never leaves like the guilt
the shame that eats away at us and I haven't been eating much
but I want to confess
but I want to do good
I want to be good.
Be good.