05: April 2015 #11 - I'm Not Dying Today
Authored by Stephanie Falkowski
I'm Not Dying Today
Yeah, you’ve let yourself go The commonality of a relationship Slight belly, thick-rimmed glasses Plaid sweaters – Prof, when do you teach classes? Yeah, you 2 look happy- Hooray? Let me not get sappy. The promise ring you gave me is somewhere in my dresser Yeah, we got their blessing but knew we killed the messenger. You’re 1 out of the 5 people that’ll laugh at my jokes. Somehow your body stopped doing it for me I won’t deny; I needed to be loved by bigger folks. You’re scraping ice off the car while I’m trying to get warm I’m sitting where her ass has sat, yeah this is the norm. You’re asking about my love life and I repetitively say: “Non-existent, vacant, who wants my cray?” Oh, but my life is full of adventures and yoga and friends Maybe I need more loving instead of backbends. I’m telling you I think I need medication and you don’t get why Boy, my dear boy, don’t make me cry. You say I’m too skinny and ask if I’m okay. Yeah, I just don’t eat meat and to answer your question I’m not dying today. Perhaps you provide me with comfort, with a sense of home. But I know someone’s out there Who’ll contour my body and sing with me OM.